Loch Novel – He was playing with another girl in his arms. A girl who wasn’t me. Me, who happened to be his date for the evening. The love of my life danced with Misti Fitzgerald, the prettiest, most popular girl in class. When the song finished, I then observed with horror him bending and pecking her… on the mouth! “You are such a jerk!” “I don’t date geeks.” Loch looked past Marcy’s shoulder at me with cold. He had ripped me to shreds.
I pushed my glasses up my nose and stood watching as the love of my life danced with Misti Fitzgerald, the prettiest, most popular girl in class, and couldn’t help the tumble that my heart took at seeing him smile down at her . “ He’s such a jerk!” Marcy Belton, my best friend, hissed as she came and stood beside me at the edge of the gymnasium floor, hands on her hips. I couldn’t have agreed more but I just shrugged. I mean, what could I do other than stare as Lochlan Powers rocked back and forth to the slow song that was playing with another girl in his arms. A girl who wasn’t me. Me, who happened to be his date for the evening.
When the song finished, I then observed with horror him bending and pecking her… on the mouth! Then he held her hand as he led her off the floor. “ Oh, my God,” Marcy bit out. “I’m gonna let him have it!” She grabbed me by the hand and tugged me with her as she crossed the gym floor, cutting through couples and not even excusing herself, to the opposite corner where all the cool sixth graders were hanging out. “ Marcy! No!” I pleaded, trying to get my hand free from hers, but it was of no use since we’d already arrived at her destination. “ Loch!” she yelled. When he turned to see who was shouting at him, I watched as he regarded us both with annoyed consideration, me especially. Marcy marched right up and got in his face.
“Simone is your date! You shouldn’t be hanging out with someone else!” She shot Misti a dirty look who gave her one right back. Loch looked past Marcy’s shoulder at me with cold, disapproving brown eyes which made my face instantly hot. Then I watched in morbid fascination as he brought the side of his mouth up in a smirk and looked back at Marcy. “ I don’t date geeks.” The kids standing around him laughed to my complete and utter embarrassment and I looked down in humiliation at my first pair of real high heels that I’d ever owned, so cute with the rounded toe and teardrop cutouts.
They were black and looked cute with my black and white polka-dotted dress with the flouncy skirt. Compared to the tight, hot red dress Misti was wearing, I guess mine was kind of babyish but I loved it. “ Let’s go, Marcy,” I begged, then bit my lip as I avoided the eyes of my cruel classmates. “ No, Sim! He shouldn’t be doing this!” And that was when Loch had gotten mad (probably pretty embarrassed himself at being called out in front of all his friends) and gone for the throat. “Really wanna know why I’m here with her?” The sneer on his face as he tossed a hand toward me let me know that I completely disgusted him. “My mom made me. She felt sorry for her, so she paid me fifty bucks to bring her.” This got an even bigger laugh from his peers and I wanted to crawl under a rock and die. “Ah!” I cried out as I sat up in bed, breathing hard. “Nightmare again?” I heard Marcy holler from the bathroom which was across and down the hall from my bedroom in the cute little house we rented.
I flopped back down on my pillow, scrubbing my eyes with my palms. “Yes,” I mumbled wishing she hadn’t heard me and pissed off that the stupid dreams were happening again. “Anxiety from all your repressed emotions!” she responded making me groan. Marcy was now a psychology major and I’d been diagnosed by her at least once a week since my return. Yippee. “Yeah, yeah,” I grumbled as I stared up at my bedroom ceiling. I was back in Seattle where I’d been born and mostly raised. Marcy and I had been best friends since kindergarten and there was no telling how many hours we’d spent as little girls plotting and planning how when we got older we’d share a fancy apartment, we’d both date the most handsome boys on Hallervan University’s campus (we’d chosen Hallervan since our parents had gone there and it was smaller than UDub) and we’d both major in veterinary science so we could play with puppies and kittens all day long.
But right before my seventh grade year, we’d been devastated when my dad had been transferred to Silicon Valley. And there went our dream. My older brother Tristan and I had finished school in Palo Alto. Tristan hadn’t been happy about the move since it had been his senior year, which I couldn’t say I blamed him, and he remained angry the entire year at the fact that he’d had to leave his girlfriend and all his friends behind in Seattle. A week after he graduated, he’d packed up all his things and moved back. Our parents hadn’t been thrilled that he’d left so brashly, but they’d understood to a certain extent. When he’d enrolled at UDub that fall, though, all seemed to be forgiven. After I graduated high school, I’d gone on to attend UC Berkeley the past two years. Marcy and I had stayed in touch since I’d moved then last spring she’d called saying her roommate had moved out, that it would be the perfect time for me to transfer and I’d jumped at the chance.
When I’d told my parents, they’d reacted about the same way they had with Tristan just not as emphatically since I was leaving on good terms. Their apprehension at my leaving was understandable since I was the baby and Berkeley had only been about thirty minutes away, so I’d come home almost every weekend to see them. But I was going to be twenty-one next month and I felt it was time for me to spread my wings. So, yep, here I was, back in Seattle. And that’s when the nightmares had started again. Don’t get me wrong. I was ecstatic that Marcy and my dream of living together and going to Hallervan had finally come true. But according to her, being here had dredged up hurtful memories that I’d never dealt with. Memories of Lochlan Powers, aka my archenemy. See, Loch’s mom and mine had been friends while in college, and when Mrs. Powers had opened a daycare, well, that’s where I’d ended up when my mom decided to go back to work.
So I’d practically known Loch since birth. We’d shared a crib a few times and had even once bathed together and Mom had the pictures to prove it. Ugh. He and I had been buddies throughout elementary school, playing together on the playground and after school at his mom’s daycare. But when we reached middle school things had changed. Since I didn’t go to daycare anymore and the school we attended was bigger, we didn’t see each other as often and kind of lost contact. Oh, I always kept an eye on him. How could I not when he was the cutest and coolest guy in school? He was naturally good at sports and made straight A’s in class and all the girls adored him. Marcy had even once confessed to having had a slight crush on him. But as for me? I’d been head over heels for him to an almost embarrassing degree.
Yay me. Of course, he’d wanted nothing to do with the bespectacled, too-skinny, painfully shy, nerdy girl he’d grown up with who he often caught ogling him from afar. I hadn’t been popular or a cheerleader or on the Student Council. No, I’d been timid and reticent and nothing but background noise to him. Our sixth grade year, our moms had conspired (unbeknownst to me unfortunately) deciding it’d be a great idea for Loch to escort me to the Spring Dance. When he’d asked me, I’d almost fainted, having been so out-of-this-world excited at the prospect of getting to spend time with him again that I’d failed to see the annoyed look on his face. And you’ve seen how that turned out. So since my return to Seattle, the nightmares had come back with a vengeance and I’d had no idea until now that what had happened at the dance had apparently been so traumatic for me.
Wait. I take it back. That was me being a big fat liar. I actually did know I’d been traumatized because I’d stayed upset for a very long time afterward. I mean, I’d been an impressionable twelve-year-old girl and Loch had definitely done a number on my already fragile ego. I also knew that the way he’d behaved had ripped me to shreds and caused me to have all those crappy nightmares. Moreover, I knew I’d crawled into a proverbial shell and shut everyone out my seventh through ninth grade years only making friends with Emmalynn Talbot who was the sweetest person ever and friends with everyone and was now at LSU majoring in petroleum engineering. And I likewise knew that it had taken Coach Hawkins’ coaxing me out of that shell at the end of my freshman year to get me to try out for the soccer team (which I’d made then played on the next three years and loved every minute of it). Lastly, the biggest, most colossal thing I knew was that I hated Loch Powers.
A lot. As in a lot a lot. As in, if hate were planets, I’d be Jupiter, a lot. I think you get the picture. And, dang it, I was now pissed off to no end that I’d been such a frail little wilting flower of a girl who’d let a stupid boy’s actions affect me to the extent that they had. But I wasn’t going to let things get to me anymore because I was no longer the bashful, ugly, geeky girl he’d once insulted. Well. I take that back too. I’m still geeky but I can deal with that. Nothing wrong with being geeky. Anyway, I wouldn’t say I was beautiful, but instead of the pop-bottle-bottom glasses that had once graced my face, I now wore contacts that with their slight tint made my blue eyes appear bluer, and I also wore my auburn hair in long layers of loose curls most of the time instead of the two braids, ala Wednesday Addams, that I’d worn for years. I’d changed my look, having matured and finally grown out of my obsession with the awesome albeit macabre girl.
After that I’d been hit on a few times by some very handsome guys so I didn’t think I was lacking too much in the looks department. Also, soccer had been a great workout and made me proud of my fit body. I’d even once overheard a couple boys in my class saying something about my being built like a brick shithouse, which I think meant I had curves. I definitely had boobs and a booty and I dressed in a way that didn’t overtly flaunt them but I didn’t try hiding what I had either. So that all being said, the relevancy of it was, I was stronger now, bolder, and if I happened to run into Loch, well, I told myself I’d no longer be intimidated by him. Nope, I’d stand up to him and would probably tell him what a jerk he’d been and how he’d almost ruined my life and that he could go take a hike. Yep. That’s exactly what I’d do.