No Longer Your Luna Novel – My mate Mason wraps his arm around Britney, pulling her into him. Her blonde reaching her waist and piercing blue eyes biting into my skin. My wolf growls in possession of her mate but Mason doesn’t care about me, or Jade, or the pain he is causing. “Britney is fit to be a luna, she is my mate and you Amethyst, are nothing” he declares. Fire erupts in my veins, clouding my vision “I, Mason Price, future alpha of the Stone Heart Pack, hereby reject you Amethyst” he states. The pain is unbearable, like my heart broke into pieces. I cough, blood filling my mouth. “I, Amethyst, reject you Mason Price” I stare at the forest, dark and scary. It holds the unknown and that terrifies me. But I rather face the unknown than stay here.
Amethyst Have you ever wished for something so unattainable? I have. Only at the time, I didn’t think of it as being unattainable. It was within reach for my tiny hands but as the years passed, I realized wishes aren’t meant to come true. They are purely there to provide us a sense of comfort to move forward, a false hope. From the beginning of this miserable life, I have only ever experienced pain. Whether its physical or emotional, it all hurt the same. Dumped at the doorstep of the Stone Hearts Pack for orphans, my pathetic life was solidified. It wasn’t a huge house but over the years, it housed over twenty pups. Only ten remain now. There is a stigma attached to being an orphan in this pack. You are unwanted by your parents and casted aside like dirt. Everyone in this pack, whether they are adults or kids – they treat orphans like slaves.
Since I was five, I have been ridiculed and tortured. Hence why the numbers have dropped from twenty to ten, because not everyone can survive the torment we are subjected to. It’s a miracle that I have survived till sixteen or maybe it isn’t. Today is the day that I find my mate. And I want it to be Mason Price – the Alpha’s son. No, I’m not delusional. Mason and I used to be best friends when we were younger, he was the only one to protect me from the torment. He used to beat up anyone that hurt me and Mason often said that he prayed for us to be mates so that we can be together forever. However, when his Alpha training began at eight, everything changed. He became like everyone else, maybe even worse. I’m living in a fantasy because I’m still holding onto that wish, that he is my mate and will finally realize that we are meant to be.
I avoided going to school today because the mating ceremony happens tonight. I’m clutching onto the only source of my happiness; Mason. Everything about him is intoxicating, his charm is contagious, and you could never say no to him. He is attentive and kind but never to me anymore. I’m on his hooker list and I don’t know why. My best friend Esmory didn’t want to come tonight. I don’t know which is worse, facing the future leaders of the pack or staying in that haunted asylum we call home. Esmory welcomes the ghosts and demons more than Mason and his gang. Well, because they are jerks who pick on orphans. It isn’t just teasing; they beat her up to a pulp that she couldn’t move for a month even with her healing abilities.
She keeps her head down, avoids all contact, and barely comes to school anymore. The dark sky highlights the glow of the moon, illuminating us. The scent of fresh leaves and rain hits my nose, and I can feel Jade purr in my mind. ‘Have a feeling this is going to be where our lives change Jade’ I smile. Jade nestles closer towards me. ‘Same here purple’ I chuckle at her nickname for me. My name takes after the unique colour of my eyes, some believe it’s the work of dark magic since no one has the same colour as mine. Its one of the many reasons that I’m picked on the most, the girl with freak eyes. That’s when I smell it, like pine and berries. Unfamiliar to me, its addicting and making my mind disorientated. I can’t help but be drawn to it, Jade on high alert as her tongue darts out in anticipation. Following the induced scent, each step making it more potent than before. Until I come face to face with my wish. ‘Mate’ Jade declares.
His sandy blonde hair dishevelled, concealing his forehead. A plain white shirt that curved around each muscle, his biceps threaded with green veins. Grey sweatpants and feet on the soil, ready for a night of hunting for his mate. Only, the look in his dark chocolate eyes makes me want to burn to the ground. Its not one of love, its one of hatred and anger. Molten lava pooling at those eyes as he growls. “NO!” he yells in that Alpha tone. It cracks at my bones, terror creeping up my spine. My heart is racing, his anger is doubling until his tan skin turns red. “Mason-“ “SHUT UP” he roars. His chest rises and falls, I can practically see steam erupting from his ears. Jade claws at me, visibly sad and angry at his tone. Its odd, she never cowers in fear around him but I’m about ready for the ground to swallow me whole. Mason crosses the distance between us, his scent making my mind spiral in delight and fear. “Of all people, it had to be you” Everything I’ve wanted to say gets lodged in my throat.
“We are mates, we can be together now” I whisper, knowing of the crowd that’s circling us. He chuckles like a demon. “You. My mate. Never. I don’t want some pathetic little orphan as the luna of this pack. You are not worthy of the title; you aren’t even worthy of my presence” My chest aches, a sob slipping through my parted lips. Jade whimpers in my mind, and his figure becomes distorted by the tears. Everything I want to say is on my tongue and yet I can’t find the words to begin. Britney takes her position next to Mason, her blonde her reaching her waist and piercing blue eyes biting into my skin. He wraps his arm around her, pulling her into him. Jade growls in possession of her mate but Mason doesn’t care about me, or Jade, or the pain he is causing. “Britney is fit to be a luna, she is my mate and you Amethyst, are nothing” he declares.
Fire erupts in my veins, clouding my vision “I, Mason Price, future alpha of the Stone Heart Pack, hereby reject you Amethyst” he states. The pain is unbearable, like my heart broke into pieces. The ache in my chest intensifying, its shooting through my limps and making each part of my body ache. “Reject me now, so we can be done with this” Mason says. I heave. “No” That only fuels his anger and before I could react, Mason’s fist connects with my cheek. I feel the bones crush, my entire body flying to the ground. Everything hurts, I can’t take it but it doesn’t stop, he starts kicking me relentlessly in the stomach. Ribs cracking one by one, I can’t even breathe. Everything seems to blur, time never-ending, and the torture never stops. Until he grabs my hair and pulls me to face him, his figure a blur as I fight the darkness. “Reject me now or I will kill you” he seethes.
I cough, blood filling my mouth. “I, Amethyst, reject you Mason Price” If he felt even a lick of pain, he was good at masking it but the truth is, he never cared. Jade howls in agony and I don’t fight the pain, the torture is agonising. I can’t feel anything but pain, its overwhelming and drowning. Mason laughs from above me. “You better stay out of my sight otherwise I won’t stop until you are dead” Coughing up a lung, the pounding in my head feels like bricks are coming down on me. Everyone disperses like ants while my battered body lays against the soil. Everything burned to the ground in one night, Mason is itching to kill me and by breathing – it’s only a matter of time. ‘We have to leave purple’ Jade growls strongly, but its soft towards me.
Jade lends me some of her strength as I attempt to get up. After a fifth attempt, I stare at the forest, dark and scary. It holds the unknown and that terrifies me. But I rather face the unknown than stay here. ‘I’m sorry Jade’ She knows what I’m about to do. I’m making her become a rogue, the worst of the worst. ‘Don’t worry purple, we have each other’ she comforts. I smile through my broken face. Letting Jade take the reins and shift into my wolf.
Three Months Later I can feel my humanity slipping, when you become a rogue, there is a line that you tether between full on beast or full fledge human. I’m crossing the line of beast, mainly because Jade is vengeful. Her fangs drip with venom whenever she thinks of Mason and the Stone Heart pack. Visions of that night replay in my mind and it only aggravates me. I was naïve to think that a measly mate bond would change Mason and completely helpless to his torture. I was weak but I won’t make that mistake again. Ever since we surrendered to the forest, everything became clearer. The sky often painted a bright blue like the ocean, clouded with white cotton candy in various shapes. The scent of nature sometimes differs, the soil, the trees, the leaves, it’s a never -ending cycle.
Mainly, it smelt like freshness if I could describe the scent of seeping into your bones and bringing relaxation. Living in the forests has its pros but there are way more cons, I’m basically stuck in my wolf form. Jade is a beautiful snow-white wolf; you could spot her glowing in the darkness from miles away. When I transformed, I had to give Jade control to survive. Usually we would have conflict, fighting dominance on who should take the reins, but I wasn’t going to fight my only source of survival. We hunted, deer’s and rabbits. I can’t stomach the taste of raw meat in human form and since that’s my only means of preventing starvation, I let Jade devour all the meat she could find. We don’t have a plan, nor do we have any options. I left without a trace and as soon as I left the borders of the pack – I felt it. The bond tying me to Stone Heart, severe.
Like a string being cut, everything intensified, the excruciating pain that shot through my skull and heart made me feel like I was split open. I wasn’t attached to them and yet I had to suffer the lose worse than them. The howl escaped my lips before I could stop Jade, gripping my hair to supress the pain but it wouldn’t stop. That’s when Jade took over, sprinting away from there territory and into the outskirts of the unknown. The further we leaped, the duller the pain became. I was grateful that Jade protected us when I couldn’t – not like I ever do. Night falls, darkness seeping into my surroundings but the glow of the moon spotlights us. I wonder if the moon goddess is watching us, seeing her repercussions of mating me to a monster.
Jade places her paws in front of her, resting her chin and getting comfortable. ‘I’m sorry that you are stuck with me Jade’ I sob, the tears flowing down my cheeks. I can feel her next to me, her whine and her head nuzzling into me. ‘Don’t say that purple, you and I are one, we are meant to be’ she soothes. A chuckle cracks into a sob as I wrap my arms around her neck. In my mind, we are both two separate beings. That’s how we communicate with the ability to face each other head on but our bodies are one in the human world. Hence the werewolf title, once I turn into a wolf, that’s all-Jade’s entity. ‘We don’t have a plan’ I voice as she retracts and we sit side by side, watching through her eyes like a movie of the forest. ‘No, we don’t but we have time to decide what to do’ I sigh.
‘The best option is to find another pack, I doubt they would welcome a rogue though’ ‘True. But we don’t know about the rules of other packs, they could be different from The Stone Heart pack’ her optimistic tone brings a smile to my lips. I’m about to voice my opinion when there is a crunch of a branch, Jade immediately transitions into defence mode. Highly alert and growling at the attacker who could jump out from any direction. We can’t pick up a scent nor has there been any other movement for the past five minutes. It could have been an animal but that thought quickly dissipates when a man appears in front of me. “Amethyst?”