Rejected and Unwanted Novel – I, Amarah of White Cresent Pack, reject you as my Mate. I reply and the Male crashes to the floor in pain. I turn around and walk away from the room as tears roll down my face, I slowly make my way up to my room as my world crumbles around me. My Mate didn’t wait for me and he rejected me in the most humiliating way, but I don’t understand whyI am not in pain. I was raised with the believes that a Mate-bond is sacred, but apparently my Mate wasn’t. He slept with another woman! I will prove to MY EX-Mate that he made a huge mistake by rejecting ME. I will humiliate him in the worst way, I will bring him to his knees in public.
Amarah It is a little after midnight when I decide to get changed into something a bit more within my comfort zone and as I walk in through the back door I get hit by an intoxicating scent, a scent I smelled a few times during the evening. I had not been able to locate the scent with all those Wolves around, because it came and quickly went away every time. This time I sniff the air and I know that however the scent belongs to is inside the Pack-house, I slowly walk further into the hallway. With every step I take the scent becomes stronger and Minerva, my Wolf, is jumping up and down in my head, making me giggle at her. I am at the bottom of the stairs when I realize that the scent is coming from upstairs and I get an inkling feeling. Minerva is now pacing in my head and like me she doesn’t like where this is leading us. As I reach the first floor Minerva whispers “Mate” and I start walking towards the guest rooms on this floor, but I know that we don’t have anyone spending the night here. Suddenly a noise stops me dead in my tracks and Minerva and I are on high alert, being an Alpha’s Daughter makes me react faster than most.
I turn around to see if there is someone behind me and when I am satisfied I am alone in the hallway I turn back around. After taking two more steps I am on high alert again, but this time I know the sound is coming from somewhere in front of me and tentativelyI take another step. Slowly but steadily I get closer to the scent and slowly a smile appears on my face, I believe Minerva is right. Minerva is getting more agitated the closer we get to the scent, but she can’t explain to me why and I decide to ignore her for the time being. Following the scent has lead me to the last room on my right and as I put my hand on the doorknob I hear someone whimper. Not knowing what might be behind the door I quietly turn the doorknob and I start pushing the door open slowly and quietly. My eyes widen at the scene in front of me and Minerva is roaring in my head. A male is standing at the foot of the bed and in front of him is a woman on all fours, they are so engrossed with one and other that they don’t even notice me.
The male slowly turns his head towards me as he keeps pounding into the female, he has a smirk on his face and I realize that even the female is looking at me now. “I, Damien of Dark Mountain Pack, reject you as my Mate. I don’t need a barbie doll.” The male says and I hear Minerva whimper in my head, I know he is our mate but he really doesn’t want us. “I, Amarah of White Cresent Pack, reject you as my Mate.”I reply and the Male crashes to the floor in pain. I turn around and walk away from the room as tears roll down my face, I slowly make my way up to my room as my world crumbles around me. My Mate didn’t wait for me and he rejected me in the most humiliating way, but I don’t understand whyI am not in pain. I feel sad at losing my fated Mate, for not getting the relationship my parents have and for the pain Minerva has to endure.
Losing a Mate is worse for the Wolf than it is for the Human and there for I feel sad for Minerva. I was raised with the believes that a Mate-bond is sacred, but apparently my Mate wasn’t. I don’t remember how I get up the stairs or how get to my room, I don’t remember getting out of my dress or into the bathroom and I don’t remember getting into the shower. But it is where my Mother found me early in the morning, still silently crying at the loss of my Mate. Mom dries me off and helps me to bed, cuddling me until I fall asleep. Mom wakes me close to lunch, but I tell her I don’t feel up for it and she gets me something to eat before she heads to the dining room herself. I don’t feel like eating but I know I have to and I force myself to finish everything Mom brought me.
I stare at the ceiling until I fall asleep again and again it is Mom that wakes me just before dinner, but just as earlier I don’t want to see anyone. Mom goes through the same routine again and so do l as I force myself to eat. Minerva has been quiet ever since I walked away from our Mate and I tell her that I understand that she is hurting and that I don’t have the words to comfort her, but that I am here whenever she needs me. For the first time today I feel her presence and I feel a little relieved at that feeling. Mom comes into my room after dinner and asks ifI am ready to tell her what happened, I just shake my head as I am nowhere near ready to say those words out loud. She holds me as I cry myself to sleep once again. … I wake up in the middle of the night to a very agitated Minerva and she tells me we need to go for a run. I quietly make my way down the stairs as everyone else is fast asleep and as soon as I walk out the back door Minerva takes over, making a run for the border.
She crosses the border without slowing down, sniffing the air in search of rogues and I hope that she will be able to get rid of some of the pent up anger raging through her. It doesn’t take her long to find a rogue that is roaming near our northern border and she toys with him for a while before tearing him to pieces, she leaves his body close to the border. She takes another sniff in the air, before she takes off running again. After a few hours she has killed six rogues and I can tell that she has calmed down a little, but I know it will take a few more nights like this before she has come to terms with what Damien did. We rush back towards the border and again she doesn’t slow down as we cross the border. Roars and howls wake me a few hours later and I know that our Warriors have found the rogues Minerva took out during the night. I hear footsteps run around the Pack-house and softer rushed footsteps inside the Pack-house, indicating that everyone was woken up. I decide to get dressed and go see Dad to tell him Minerva took those rogues out, but Minerva shows me the scene with Damien again.
I know she needs this to get it out of her system and Dad will order us to stay within the borders as soon as he finds out it was Minerva. Deciding not to tell Dad I fall back on my bed again, Damien’s rejection running through my mind again and the tears start running again. The day repeats itself, spending my time in bed and crying for the loss of my Mate. Minerva and I both don’t understand why and I guess we will never find out the answer to that question. He said he didn’t want a barbie doll, but how could he say that seeing we never met before and anyone that knows me will tell you I am anything but a barbie doll. No, I think he used that as an excuse to reject me and if I ever meet him again I will make him regret this. l ignore the knocks on my door, l ignore the pushes against my barrier on the mind-link and only Mom opens my door after I don’t respond to her knocking.
Just like yesterday she makes sure my food is brought up to my room and just like yesterday I don’t leave my room. lone POV After hearing from Alpha Atlas that something happened to Amarah we went to her office to find some answers and so far all we know is she left the party before most of the guests left, but after that no one seems to know where she went. None of us got much sleep as we were worrying about our best friend and this morning before heading to Amarah’s office I asked Dad if he had any idea on where to look next. He told me to use our security cameras to see where she went after she left the party. As Melia and I are eating our breakfast we watch the security cameras that we have outside to see where she went and to our surprise she walks into the Pack-house, telling us that what ever happened, happened inside the Pack-house.
I know that our security cameras record image and sound, something Dad told me came in handy if you couldn’t see someone’s face and I hoped that it would explain what happened in the Pack-house a little more than just watching the footage. Rhea and Eos walk into the office as I am searching for the footage from inside the Pack-house and once I have found it I put it on the big screen so we can all see it at the same time. We see her enter through the backdoor and it takes us only a second to realize that she found her Mate. Instead of saying or asking anything we watch the screen as it unfolds the most horrifying thing I have ever seen. I think I would rather watch a massacre over and over again then to ever see this again and as I look at my friends I know I am not the only one. It has taken us hours to find all the footage from inside the Pack-house and now that we have finally found the answer to our question my Wolf wants to go kill someone. It is close to dinnertime and I know I have to let Alpha Atlas know what we found, not something I am looking forward to.
“Alpha, could you come to Amarah’s office and bring everyone with you.”I tell him through the mind-link and within seconds all our parents, Amarah’s parents and her Brother walk in. I tell my Dad I followed his advice and found out what happened during the night of the party. Melia starts the video feed and like us they quickly realize what most have happened, but Melia stops the feed before we get to the point where her life changed for good.”I don’t know….” I start, but I am not sure how to say what I want to say and Eos is the one to help me out. “Alpha Atlas, I would rather spend twenty four hours reading through our history than ever see this again.” Eos says and Alastor pales as we all know how much she hated it when we went to school. Alpha Atlas tells Melia to start the feed again and we all watch as she walks down the hallway towards the soft sounds. Eos walks towards the window as the feed jumps to another camera in the hallway and as we see Amarah slowly open the door I hear Alpha Atlas growl, which only becomes louder the more he sees. Our Mothers have tears running down their cheeks as they hear the words spoken by the male and Alastor yells, “I am going to kill you, Damien.”
before he has mentioned his name and I wonder how he knew who the male was as I didn’t. Our Fathers are growling and roaring, while our Mothers are heartbroken. We keep watching as Amarah slowly makes her way up to her room, staggering up the stairs and once she is in her room Melia cuts the feed. None of us say a word as we try to make sense of what we saw. Alastor asks why he referred to Amarah as a barbie doll and I have no idea what answer to give him,”Maybe because she was wearing a dress.” Rhea whispers. “She looked like a porcelain doll in that dress and I doubt he ever saw her in her usual outfits.” We all know that she is probably right, Amarah looked amazing in her dress and anyone that didn’t know her would have thought she was a spoilt little brat. Not that that is an accurate picture of Amarah as she is the best Warrior we have and our future Alpha.
Amarah I hear my Dad roar and I wonder if he found out what happened. Soon he is joined by his Beta and Gamma and I even hear my Brother roar, sounds like they are beyond pissed. Minerva roars in my head as the tears come once more, I didn’t think I had any left but apparently I was wrong. Mom walks in with my dinner on a tray and I know she will not ask me to come downstairs to have dinner with everyone else. She tells me they know what happened and that Dad wants to inform the Pack about it, show them the footage of the video feed. I tell her Dad is allowed to inform the Pack, but to make it clear that no one is to bring it up in my presence. Unless of course, I bring it up myself. Our Pack will be outraged and I know that once they have seen it I will hear roars throughout the Pack. It doesn’t take long before I hear the first roars and when I hear roars about an hour later I know Dad just informed the Wolves that had been on patrol. Minerva is becoming restless again and I know that tonight will be a repeat from last night. She needs it as an outlet for the anger she is feeling towards our former Mate, just as I need to let the tears fall. I just hope that someday we will be able to put this behind us and accept our second chance Mate if we are lucky enough to find him. It is something Minerva and I do not want to think about right now, but maybe someday we will be able to think about it without feeling heartbroken and sad.
For the past three years Minerva and I had wondered what our Mate would look like, what kind of person he would be and if we had ever met him before. It is uncommon for us to find our Mate on the day we turn eighteen, usually it takes a few years as we don’t interact with other Packs on a daily basis and we had always believed in a happy ever after. Most Werewolves are taught that the Mate-bond is a sacred bond, a bond to be cherished and most Werewolves wait for their fated Mate. However, there are Werewolves that believe a fated Mate is your weakness and they chose a Mate. My eyes slowly close as my body finally gives into the exhaustion from crying my eyes out all day. His face hunts me in my sleep, his words hunt me in my sleep and there is nothing I can do about it.
Again I wake up in the middle of the night and I quickly make my way out of the Pack-house to hand over control to Minerva, giving her the chance to deal with the pain she is feeling. She doesn’t waste time as she crosses our border without being spotted by one of our Warriors. It doesn’t take her long to find a Rogue or to shred him to pieces and she keeps running along our borders, some of the Rogues flee the moment they see Minerva approaching. Those Rogues are left alone as they pose no threat to our Pack. About an hour before the sun comes up we run along our eastern border from south to north and suddenly Minerva stops dead in her tracks, sniffing the air as she scans her surroundings. “Blood, not a Rogue.”
She tells me and slowly she makes her way towards a cluster of trees and boulders. The scent of blood becomes stronger the closer we get to it and Minerva slows down even further as she keeps scanning her surroundings. Suddenly her ears perk up as we hear soft whimpers coming from within the cluster of trees and boulders. Minerva slowly steps into the trees to reveal a female covered in blood with her arms wrapped around a Pup. I ask Minerva to give me back control and the female’s eyes widen as I stand in front of her. She clearly wasn’t expecting a female to show up. “Please, don’t send us back. Please, don’t tell anyone we are here.” She whispers in a voice laced with despair. I crouch down in front of her as I take in the cuts and bruises on her body, Minerva roaring in my head at the sight of her injuries. “I won’t send you back, but I need to warn our Pack-doctor. I need to know that your Wolf will be able to heal this on her own and I need to inform my Pack, so our Warriors can keep an eye on you.”I tell her gently and it takes a few minutes before she responds.
“My Wolf says she can heal this on her own as long as we don’t have to start running again. I don’t know if I want anyone else to know that I am here, can you give me a few days to think about that?” She asks and I decide to give her some time to calm down and rest. I tell her I will be back in a few minutes and I shift into Minerva before I bolt from the cluster towards our eastern border. I quietly make my way into the Pack-house to gather some supplies and food for the female and her Pup. Once I have handed her everything I brought with me I tell her my name and I find out her name is Asteria and her Pup’s name is Inti. “I will be back tomorrow night. Get some sleep and eat something.” I say before I leave the cluster once again. It has been four days since the rejection and three days since Asteria showed up. Inti has come out of his shell, hugging Minerva the moment we enter the cluster and we both enjoy those moments. Asteria finally told me what had happened to them and I had to let Minerva out to deal with her anger.
After we talked for a while longer she finally agreed with me on telling our Pack, it will give us the chance to keep an eye on them and maybe we will be able to find out if it is safe for her to return home. Not that Asteria is as optimistic about that as lam. I crash on my bed to get a few hours of sleep before I will inform Dad about what Minerva and I have been doing at night and about our guests hiding in the cluster. It doesn’t take me long to drift off to sleep and for the first time since my rejection I sleep without dreaming. As I slowly open my eyes I realize I slept straight through and even though it still hurts thinking about Damien I know that Minerva and I will survive. I walk into the bathroom to take a shower and after that I get dressed, ready to face the world again.